The Journey Inward

A few years ago, while shopping on a winter weekend getaway with my then boyfriend, I found the most beautiful sign that fit us perfectly. Well, at the moment he was acting a bit off, but I bought it anyway, thinking things would improve and I would hang it.

Dating on and off over the years, we never really made it to a place where I felt confident enough, safe enough, to display the saying on my bedroom wall. It stowed away in my closet and I stayed hopeful. I loved this man. But something in my gut told me, Hold off.

That relationship ended last week and it was with a mixture of relief and grief that I said goodbye. Cleaning out the few things he left behind, I came across my beloved sign, the one that lay in wait for the “right” time.

Reading it to myself, it occurred to me that THIS was the right time. I was waiting for him to fulfill the promise of the words when it hit me that I fulfill that promise! I am my person! I lovingly propped it where I could see it from every spot in my bedroom. I read it over and over… “I take you to be my best friend, my person, my love. I promise to walk this life beside you. I promise to never stop trying. I promise to snuggle, smile, speak the truth and always forgive. I promise to laugh with you, cry with you and build you up. I promise to choose you today and all of my tomorrows. I promise you all of me and all of my love always.”

Of course it resonated so deeply with me because I am my best friend, my person, my love. I walk alongside myself and never stop trying. I snuggle with my pups and my favorite couch blanket, smile often, speak truth and forgive myself. I laugh and cry and build myself up. I choose myself today and all of my tomorrows with all of my love and all of me.

My intuition and self trust are intact. I haven’t always acted on my gut, but I’ve always listened and taken note. It turns out that this beautiful sign could have been hanging all along, because it was never about anyone else. It was always meant for me!