The Journey Inward

For the month of June, I am flipping through Clarity and Connection, by Yung Pueblo daily and randomly stopping at a page and reading. I am using the entry to delve into my thoughts and feelings, find what resonates, and see what answers it might hold for me. It is an exercise in building my Intuition, making space for creativity, and journeying inward so that I might know myself and others better.

“the thing about opening yourself up to healing and growth is that…deeper layers will have the space they need to come up for observation and release.” When I have an experience that provides me with the chance to reflect, receive feedback, talk with others, get in touch with my feelings and body, and write, I peel back more of my “False Self” and access more of my True Self. I am able to cast off the mask or the capes that have kept me insulated from pain and suffering, or so I thought. New understanding takes me to the next layer, which I can then sit with and observe with curiosity, not judgment. I can wonder about what these new emotions, memories, and experiences want to teach me. They have shown up to be healed and they will persist until I nurture them. They need awareness, acceptance and action.

“letting go is a long-term commitment.” I am grateful for this statement. Giving up the desire and need to control has been a decades long journey for me and there is still work to be done. Knowing that I can take this day by day, situation by situation is so calming and reassuring. Because our subconscious hides so much from us, letting go enables that peeling back and frees the pain that is held there, that drives our patterns and behaviors. I don’t have to be “there” to be happy and healthy. There is no finish line, no deadline, no product. When I commit to discovering my authentic being, I commit to breaking open and shining light into all that I have chosen, consciously and unconsciously, to hide away in shame.