The Journey Inward

For the month of June, I am flipping through Clarity and Connection, by Yung Pueblo daily and randomly stopping at a page and reading. I am using the entry to delve into my thoughts and feelings, find what resonates, and see what answers it might hold for me. It is an exercise in building my Intuition, synthesizing information, making space for creativity, and journeying inward so that I might know myself and others better. Today’s reading was on page 230.

“…it takes time and self awareness to break from the past. it takes the repetition of positive and nurturing behaviors that work against the flow of ignorance and fear. more than anything, it takes intentional action that arises from self awareness to break old habits that keep us from thriving.”

Breaking from the pain and patterns of my past is not an easy road.  It takes time.  It takes self awareness.  It takes rigorous honesty.  It takes commitment.  It takes bravery. It takes forgiveness and softness and acceptance. It takes desire and motivation.  It takes digging into that which I'd rather keep hidden away.  It takes separating MY voice from my critical inner voice.  

For me, journaling and writing truly help me with this.  My 5 Year Journal shows me in stark reality what issues I'm still wrestling with and what progress I've made.  Dictating into my phone helps me release anger, tension and anxiety.  Blogging without wordsmithing validates my narrative.  Poetry opens up my soul and lets light shine into my darkest caves.

When I respond instead of reacting, when I pause and spend time with my feelings, when I make decisions that align with my values, when I put up boundaries and maintain them, and when I delight in being alone with myself, I know I am healing and changing and growing and forging new paths forward.