The Journey Inward

I gave something away today,
something I once thought 
was magical,
meaningful,
symbolic of good times. 

I gave something away today,
and didn't feel much of anything
as I watched it disappear. 

There were no tears,
no heart string tugs,
no sadness or remorse,
no regrets or misgivings.

I gave something away today,
and felt settled, centered, calm.
I gave something away today,
with high hopes for its new home
and new owners.
I gave something away today,
and gave it my blessing to move onward. 

There were dreams around the thing,
but that's all they ever were...
just dreams, fantasy, delusion. 
The thing got caught in something
it couldn't handle, couldn't help, couldn't heal.
The thing was a bandage to a hemorrhage.

I gave something away today,
because I could see it was all an illusion,
because I could see it was all a narrative. 
I gave something away today,
because no amount of remembering the good,
will ever make the bad go away.

I gave something away today,
and kept the truth.

I gave something away today,
because I have healed enough to do so.